I cannot go any faster. :(

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I cant help but complain. Work has been crazy. Each time i finish a shift thinking that was the busiest shift ever and it keeps getting worse. 8 patients. Seems easy but when you get all the complicated cases packed together in your team, then yay. I started off trying to priortise things and made a nice timetable of things to do and after taking over, everything starts coming together at the same time, everyone wants a piece of you. So tiring! I didnt stop moving for a minute i swear. Quality nursing care is quite impossible with the amount of work. My preceptor is damn good, she juggles her time so well. She remembers everything to do and allocates work so well, i am learning a lot from her. Its getting increasingly challenging by the days, with review in a month's time, jci in 2weeks, night shifts, i dont even want to think about it. :( cant even request for leave 1week in advance unless i get somebody to replace me and im in no position to ask anyone. I mean i get from the manager's pov, staffing, manpower but :( .

Goodnight.

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True that.

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This week wasnt smooth sailing. I kept being put down at work. Grilled and pressured. Maybe im thinking too much. :( i try not to think. Cus i just keep telling myself, its cool. All i need is time. Time to get use to things, time to settle, time to be familiar but how much time exactly do i need. Sucks when you are the only new girl in the ward, there is no someone else to pitch yourself against, you can only compare yourself with the others on a different level and it contrast so much. Every mistake is stupid and every "i dont know" sounds ridiculous cus everyone else knows. Whenever im asked where im from, i feel guilt when i mouth those words. Not proud. Not at all. I know, i have not been the strongest person around and i whine all the time but i am gg to pull through this, i simply have no other choice and im looking forward to the day i can function independently and i will. But for now, the pressure is enormous. You know how i get people telling me how unlucky it is to be placed there and how crazy it will be and people asking if i was nearing to a break down because apparently most new girls did. The stress comes mostly from within. I dont know how to let myself go everytime i made a mistake. On one hand i know im new and learning but on the other, i know it is just a cover up of my incapability and i cannot live with that. Its still cool. Work is not just these. I have cute lill' kids who will make my day sometimes. And that IS the passion. I hope it will last.

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Amidst the busy an tiring work schedule, managed to squueze out some time for bit of fun.

@play. It was an awesome night! Great place. Need to go back sooooon. ;)

Even more awesome-er night with the 2 above and miss zyl! Partying till the club closes. Noob much but that was the first time i hung out in a club for soooo long.haha. :D

Alex's birthday. No out of the world celebrations. Just good brunch and chilling out.

Brunch @ one of the best brunch place in my list other than Arbite. :) wildhoney.

I drank that Heineken. ;)

;)

One of the many chill and lunch place at pique nique. Good to go if you are aroind town and want a reasonably cheap and nice place to hang.

I want my life back.

2more days to another day off. :( saturday pm shift makes life sad. :( all i want to do on day offs is just chill and not think about work.

Oh! And my Tueday off was spent with yingxieng! Catching up was awesome. :) lets do it soon and not wait for another half a yr please.

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